Saddle up your bridges, my dear, I will be letting you in on a little secret that many of us forget.
We, as individuals, have many things going on in life.
We, as teachers, wonder how we will deal with students on our bad days.
We, as parents, sometimes want to tell out little ones to, "Shut the FUCK up, sweetie, mommy needs a little quiet."
We, as single mothers, want to say SFTU maybe double the average parent.
We, as students, cannot even comprehend how we will turn this two sentence paragraph into a five page essay, equipped with 10 sources, college diction, works cited, and breathtaking conclusion to land a A.
We, as humans, grow overwhelmed.
And that is okay, y'all.
There is no rule which states you must not grow overwhelmed with life.
However, do not lose yourself in the pity party.
Take it from a lady who drifts to the dark side-- your thoughts can make the difference between "can" and "cannot."
Here, will come the secret to life, my dears.
If i am neing honest, i am no "si, se puede" type gal.
I do not walk around shooting confetti, rainbows, and sunshine from my ass.
My face is not always painted with a smile.
I do not think I can conquer all.
But what I do have is one thing that has kept me chugging through some real deep shit shows.
Ahhhh, now if you are thinking...
Because I said, "You gotta have some faith," and you remember me mentioning I am constantly making an effort to discover God and Christ; that I was not brought up with religion intertwined in my brain.
Faith is defined as such, "complete trust or confidence in someone or something."
I trust in me.
I have done some off the wall things in my lifetime, Lord knows.
Shit, some of you reading, I am certain, can name a few.
I always believe that I can complete whatever task I dream upon.
In all of the challenging situations I have placed myself, I naturally feel like I have only succeeded because it is merely what I wanted to do.
Not once did I ever think...
I just can't...
Get my bachelor's degree because I am a single mom.
Get my master's degree because I have three kids, am in the middle of a divorce, and am teaching full time.
Find the time to write a 25 page action research project.
Get a job teaching because I majored in English and not in Education.
Get a job teaching at TCL (where my name shows as T. Crymes in Webadvisor, ayeee).
Squeeze in the time to work with medical and detained homebound students.
Make time to work yet another job tending bar and serving tables on the weekend to make my financial burden uplifted a bit.
Make it with three kids, and the help from my boyfriend and many babysitters (shoutout to Cindy, Allison, Cierra, and Dani).
Just have Sunday's off, and dance between my four jobs all week.
guess what i did fail at, however.
First in 2014 with the I can not make this marriage work.
Again in 2016 with the I can not keep up with the course work of my Doctorate's program-- which was my biggest "I can't" heart break.
Funny thing is, I am certain if I had told myself "I can" then I indeed would have made time for it, I would have been in year two, and I would be doing the damn thing.
Overall, what I am trying to say is, folks...
Have some hustle about you
And hustle isn't dirty money-- it is the most glorious feeling of them all.
Hustle is finding what makes your soul flourish, and dabbling glitter all over that bitch.
It is saying, "Shit, I can do that."
And then to follow, doing that, is the hustle.
It is getting shit done.
Honey, get ALL that shit done.
It's okay to be tired.
It's okay to have fuck it moments.
Do not I can't yourself. You are a divine entity, you are wonderful, you are everything you convince yourself that you can be.
In closing, one of the sweetest things ever said about me from one of my favorite student souls.
"She also told me on Friday that if anybody thought they couldn't do anything, they should just look at you."
This student said this to our dope librarian, Cope. While it's no big deal, it quite frankly is everything.
I could be doing nothing, but somehow, I am managing to do it all.
For that, I do not think I am the shit.
I am not a bad bitch.
I just merely work tirelessly at not being mediocre.
I want my little ones and my students to rid themselves of "I can't," becasue by damn...
And by that, just wait for what is to come.
Ahead, so much greatness. So many gifts. So much life.
P.S. The blue boxes were selected above for the black idea meme man and quote because my boyfriend's favorite color is blue; that was my literal thought process in selecting. Oh, blue. He likes blue. That is all.